There are so many times in life where you feel defeated and even a failure. Even as a pastor, minister, or whatever else people call me, I get there. Today is one of those days. Every opportunity in life has it's disappointment and moments where everything you do is questioned. Have you been there....?
"I've raised them better then that!"
"I can't believe they did that!"
"I will never speak to them again!"
"After all I've been through, how could you do that to me?"
Have you said that, maybe your situation is different maybe you are in a place where the hurt has been so incredible that you don't even know if you can see the sun rise again or see the light of day. The quickest answer is to go hide under a rock, been there?
As a pastor I face many trials daily. "Did I preach the right message, did I say enough, did I talk too much, was I too loud?" I've been there before and try to remember never to go there. This week has had it's celebrations and mourning moments. I just can't believe that after so many years of being and pastoring people that I still get shocked over things, but I do. I'm human. I know it's a shock but pastors are human! :-)
It's been a weekend where I have stood by several people through good and bad and yet I guess they can respect me when they are going through things but when it's up to them and they need no guidance, not even from God, things seem to just drift and we forget about the people that stood by when no one else would. I've had three major upsets this weekend, actually in one day, my world seems crushed and it seems like it's easier to throw in the towel and quit, but I know so much better than that! I know that God has a place and a position for me, that's why I have to stand in victory and cannot take it personal. People are going to be just that people, they are going to follow flesh "in the name of God!"
I've come to a place in my life where I won't even revisit things that folks have said or things people have done. I call it my "eject" policy. There are times where "NEGATIVITY" will want to creep up and I have to say EJECT. Ha. It works try it.
If I've learned a valuable/monumental lesson today it's this, "Deception Kills Motivation WHich Stunts Your Transformation!" Be up front, be real, and be you!
Good Night,
PT
